Voices are saying every time I write something something terrible will happen?
Like fucking what?
No one is saying anything to me, I can’t confirm whether or not there’s anything actually going on.
And voices have also said that you have a gun!
Just shoot your father! Or whomever else is trying to rape you!
Voices saying if we had a child, it’d be given up for adoption and your “Father” would adopt it, they also say he would not rape it, but they also say “that’s the opposite”
They say your “younger sister” was really your first daughter with “your father” but is this in relation to that greek shit I wrote in some email long ago? I don’t remember.
And now they’re also saying I should be “inspirited to make music” from this shit so here’s a rap:
You know me,
Takuan Solo,
Mastering my mojo,
busting fat loads alone inside the dojo,
What’s his problem?
I only love these hoes yo,
Making their world go around like my first name is Dolo-
last name mite with me upon the mic,
Mc’s can’t see me like I’m bending light,
9 types of it,
all twisted and contorted,
anyone trying to make Black Metal popular in 2024 is as slow as a tortoise,
and I’m the hare,
reader beware,
I’m too fast to compute even with a blank stare,
on my face,
so know your place,
Super Dragon Balls cause ya’boi is from Outer Space.
_______
Done.
They make you feel like there’s “a thorn in your side” every time I write? Because literally they just did that to me. That shit sucks lmao.
Why would anyone do this lmao
Edit: If you want this to stop just respond, please. It sounds like that’s the best option for the both of us.
I’m pretty sure I addressed this talking point already but yeah, you wouldn’t want to see a 4 year old be raped repeatedly in your head.
I do not blame you.
If any of this is true, and you thought you could save her, sure, that’s valiant.
But I don’t need to be filled in.
Not like this anyway.
Who the fuck is running the show in Norway?
Voices are saying the powers that be wanted Norwegians to go and find someone they’d never want to be without and then “get over it.”
And that they wish I had gotten you pregnant so you could give the baby up for adoption and then commit suicide?
What the actual fuck is going on…
I’m hoping this is the final time they tell me you’re going to kill yourself.
Edit: Go to therapy, and be completely 100% honest with your therapist. Someone told me it staked some “shopping around” before they find a therapist that’s a good fit, but there are also apps like “talkspace” where from $150 per session you can do text based therapy, and type to a therapist. Thats what I was doing.
Edit: Voices just said “you never want to be with someone like me because I’d give you everything you ever wanted when you were a few years younger and now you don’t want anything anymore.”
Then they said “that’s why we never want to go to war with a Norwegian they would-“ and the voice got too quiet and stopped.
Voices say you shoved a knife in your anus just to feel something.
edit: Dancing Bear girl. Voices are saying it was you in that video cause I wrote some blog some time ago about being a male dancer or some shit. But if I wasn’t there, why were you in the video at all? It could just as well be a different person but I’m gonna upload a screenshot I just took.
Edit: You never want me to know because I would seriously “give a fuck”
At the end of the video where this screen capture is from, the woman that either is you or looks like you is “raped”
You’re putting on display what Norway/Norwegians do to people including this madness that has befallen me.
Hopefully whomever you wanted to send this message to gets it.
All of this information comes courtesy of the voices in my head.
Edit: sigh … voices are saying you gave the guy in the video chlamydia. I imagine this is something you wanted to do to me, or something the voices will say you wanted to do. To give me “something to remember you by” when in reality, most women give their paramour a yeast infection… gross…
Voices say you didn’t want to “stay faithful” because someone would “turn you up” and “make you a hoe.”
But apparently “Aaron Wall” knows how to make you (a hoe) “stay faithful.”
Honestly all I can imagine is some form of domestic violence, but if what the voices say is true you should be pretty much immune to that shit.
Not immune but, you’re still alive right?
You’re tougher than you think.
Than they say.
A cop at a hostel in Ny pulls a gun out
You woke up in the middle of the night or early morning to suck someone off at my aunts place in NY, which, as I type that out makes little to no sense because why would you hold semen in your mouth until we went to the bus stop together?
and didn’t you spit at that guy? The tall guy that turned invisible?
War Stories from the voices
Edit: More, voices say he got you to perform (fellatio) on him in the Chinese spot where you introduced your “younger sister” to boba tea. They also say if I type this out “they will all kill themselves”
Whomever they are.
VOICES SAY YOUD RATHER BE THERE!!! THEN JUST FUCKING GO!!!!
RAHFAKEUDBALDHSLSHDBSIAJZBDKSKSBDNSJSBDJDBD
DO SOMETHING!
TAKE ACTION!!!
YOU CLEARLY WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH ME!!!!
WHY THE FUCK DO THESE STUPID ASS VOICES KEEP TALKING ABOUT YOU?!?!?!?
https://www.instagram.com/reel/C9ay0MboIvM/?igsh=MXNncWt4aHo0Y29hOQ==
Someone from one of those hostels Boston or New York the voices claim turned all the way up in Norway and changed his name and his face to be with you!
Fantastic!
That doesn’t stop the voices in my fucking head!
Edit: Voices say you’re the “ugliest girl on my Instagram” and I remember that dream so you think Essarae is ugly but guess what?! I STILL FOLLOW HER! ID SMASH!!!!
“She’s just a hoe in a brothel”
“That’s the best police officer in Boston”
“That’s her inspiration”
“That is all the opposite”
How can you make sense of anything that’s being said?! EVER?! AT ALL??!
Anti-Suicide
Voices say you’re on a no fly list because you tried to have sex on the flight to or from Australia
Edit: I sent an e-mail to the prosecutor that sentenced me to jail just now. I asked him if it was possible to speak with you if I had a police escort. I just want to clear my head that fucking badly.
Voices say all Norwegian girls received enlightenment, hard to imagine, and that you’ll commit suicide, which they’ve been talking about over and over again, confirming your death and then insinuating that you’re still alive and breathing. I don’t know. I updated my profile on Bumble. I’m not hopeful, I’m not even excited, I’m just going through the motions I guess.
edit: I just heard “they would rather commit suicide than be anywhere near you”
And it didn’t feel like it was directed at me specifically but I still heard it.
Edit: Voices said you “went all over the world” for love and still didn’t find it. Idk why I’ve always been right here. Weird. But also that’s why you’re on a “no fly list” which, could also be a lie or rather, the opposite.
I never remember the rules to these “games” I just can’t be bothered…
edit: voices say all you say is “we had sex” and then “turn all the way off”
I don’t understand…
Edit: Voices say, that date you went on while you were in Boston, you did suck his dick under the table, and then tied his shoelaces together, THEN you “spit on his plate.”
edit: essentially you told a “half-truth” not the whole truth
Voices say you want me to die and then you will, however many people that are using or viewing me for “inspiration.”
I don’t have any plans to take my own life, and I am unaware of all the agents that are imitating me.
All I know is that I’m being ignored in some way shape or form from most parties here.
No one is talking to me, which is most frustrating.
Edit: Voices Say you got exactly what you want and never want to be in Boston ever again.
That feels so obvious, why do the voices have that message on repeat? Why…
Edit: voices gave me permission to write this one out! “Cheating on someone that isn’t turned all the way up would make you suicidal.”
Edit: Just had a dream where apparently you got facial reconstruction to look like this e-girl Essarae.
Your “father” was there and some dude that looked like him trying to explain what was happening to me. At the end of it all it’s been explained that someone just “turned all the way up” as I was screaming, in my mind apparently cause I didn’t move in bed and now I have lyrics for a song, that’s pretty much based on the book “Brave New World” by Hunter S. Thompson? I think it’s him.
The lyrics I remember say something like
“Already dying
Already screaming
Already trying,
To survive”
If I made a video recording of the candor then you’d get a better idea for the song but I am honest to god not trying to write music right now.
Here’s a picture of the girl:
Voices say people are committing suicide inside me.
That I’m your “coffin.”
Sounds more like the torture device “Iron Maiden” that shares the same name with an 80’s metal band.
More like an “Iron Man” however, since ya’know, I’m a dude and all.
But that was short lived, the time that it took for them to start talking about you again.
Voices also said you’d have sex with all of my high school teachers to inspire black metal.
New, but still weird…
While your life and the horrors that came with it are no longer a topic, voices keep saying I was “suicidal” for being social in my terrible twenties.
I think it’s in relation to how many young people in the 90’s in Norway, wanted to or thought about making “Black Metal” music, so getting black out drunk like I did might inspire an up and coming artist in Norway to idk, murder you?
That’s the only way I’m making sense of this shit.
Voices say you’ve committed suicide, again.
I took a nap earlier in the day and woke up to that news.
And while I’m not hearing anymore about the sexual war crimes done to you, I hope you find peace in the afterlife, or in your next life, whatever they mean by “suicide.”
What I’ve come to understand from all of this madness is that maybe, possibly, we didn’t know each other all that well at all, but again, we were teenagers, teenagers that thought they knew the world and really didn’t. At least that was me.
But I was willing to learn and grow, honestly, and I still am, albeit, I’m a bit more cautious now, in some ways.
Anyway. Peace, blessings, love and joy.
I wish the best for you.
Even in death.
When Odin “shot you” the voices are saying if I let you hit the ground you’d have pretended to have amnesia and have gone to go have sex with someone. Thats “being playful.”