What’s up party people in the place to be? Hows it hanging with you because for me life is REASONABLE.
The run down is school sucks, my art (I feel) sucks and work is great, I’m at work right now as I blog this.
sigh so where do I begin?
Let’s start with art: I’m comparing myself to all the great instagram artists out there making killer pieces, putting in upwards fo 17+ hours into an illustration and getting jobs doing art. Jobs that I’d like to consider dream opportunities while I sit around and mull about a few projects I need to complete before I die.
With that being said I’m not completely down and out, I went ahead and submitted my book “Lovers” to be republished and this time copy edited to check for spelling and grammatical errors after a woman bought my book and told me it had a bunch of errors in it. My theory is that either I submitted the wrong poems or the proofreading I did wasn’t enough and so, the copy editing begins! Hoping and praying that I get the opportunity to present the book at the Boston Art Book Fair this year so long as COVID vaccines do their job and I might even table with a longtime best buddy Rene Dongo. Fingers crossed!
I remember the “successful” tables at the fair where tables that people already knew about, they had already established a following where as I’m just starting to build a following, that being said I’m not really disheartened by that, I just hope I can keep churning out work and eventually get to a place financially where all I do is focus on my art. That place seems to get further and further away some days.
School: I got a late start because they cancelled the order on my textbook and I haven’t caught up the the class yet, I haven’t submitted any work and I’m CONFIDENT I’m going to fail, again. At least this time I’m paying for my education out of my own pocket instead of relying on financial aid, which would make me jump through hoops to get considered again for a pell grant and I don’t know how many times I can rewrite the same letter and tell them “This semester will be different!” Like fuck it I’m just gonna do it myself, FUCK AID.
But honestly it still doesn’t feel right, failing over and over and spending nearly $900 to do it, somethings gotta give. I told my teacher I usually get the idea the second time around but she said she didn’t want me to repeat classes but if I plan to get my bachelors I’m probably gonna repeat a few classes to increase my GPA. I can clearly see the path that I’m on, I just hate the ride/journey.
Work: Work is awesome, keep being awesome work. This is probably one of the best jobs I’ve ever had and I don’t feel like letting it go or moving on, at least not until something comes along with higher pay. I can keep doing this for a while and I’m glad my occupation is so relaxing/rewarding. I’m probably going to sing these praises of my job until something DRASTIC happens, but fingers crossed that nothing that DRASTIC does happen ya’know?
AAAAANNNNNNNNDDDDDD that’s it for the update, it’s like 2/3 things are bad but I don’t have anything else because of COVID. Like if I could go clubbing on the weekends (translation: Disco Dancing) I’d have a nightlife distraction, but COVID just makes it easier and easier to sleep all day and wait for the work week to start.
I might go to the movies,
we’ll see.