Hello EVERYBODY! What’s up party people in the place to be and for those 6 new onlookers on Facebook and the many more on Twitter, Howdy!
I wish I was on a tight schedule with these blog posts but I like how the “organic stream of consciousness” timing and flow of my words work as well. Maybe even better than a forced schedule.
So what’s new? I’m kicking ass in school and I’m exploring more art and started back up reading poetry again.
I’ve been on twitter tweeting bits and pieces of what could be a much larger blog but I realized fairly recently that I was only able to publish my books of poetry because I had a large catalog of poems from years of work that were unpublished. I feel now my new writing is writing that I want to publish quickly and that might be a bad approach to how I should continue my career. That being said I’ve managed to write only two poems in the last two months because I’ve been hyper focusing on school, which, ironically, I do kind of have down to a schedule.
I investigate how many sections are in a chapter (about 3) I read a section a day, do the homework the day of the last chapter or a few hours when work is slow before the homework is due and I relax/attend class Friday morning and enjoy my evening at work usually scrolling on my phone, not trying to feed my brain creative sustenance or try to inspire anything from my scholarly attuned consciousness.
I think I need and deserve the break! I can dedicate the summer to being creative everyday but when it comes to being in school it’s vital that I get decent grades or at least passing marks if I plan to continue on to my bachelors degree or even further. I want to go back to school for art too, but that’s not feasible, that’s like a guilty pleasure honestly.
Anyway I haven’t invested the way I planned to either. Last month we got stuck with an additional fee to the rent so all my money went there and now I’m behind on bills. I’m hoping to pay rent by the 3rd week of this month but it’s looking kinda shaky right now, as I remember my credit card bills coming up. Christmas can’t come any sooner I swear, and I haven’t even gone shopping for Christmas yet!!! I used to go shopping early, like in October but now!? I think one year I was still shopping two weeks before Christmas Day. Time flies I swear…
I’m also playing tug of war with dating right now. I activated a few apps and have a profile here and there but honestly I don’t really feel like dating anymore. I thought I had a date lined up with a girl and she never responded and I just go “what’s the point of being on a dating app if you dont want to date!?” Save being afraid to catch COVID I mean c’mon!
I’m also walking more, getting more exercise, changed my meds if it’s affecting my weight loss journey and I’m on a new diet with my brother. My next goal is to maybe wake up early enough to exercise in the morning but with this new diet I’m not sure I’ll need to.
I just want to be sexy man. Is that too much to ask?
See’ya later gators! I have a letter to write lol.