Slut

You “aren’t a slut” unless they “turn you all the way up”

And that’s why we break up/broke up so often.

This is the reason why you don’t want to be with someone “faithful” like me, apparently.

Edit: a girl just approached me at the bus stop a few minutes ago.

For that brief moment my mind wasn’t racked with thoughts of you, but the voices were still present.

At some point I realized that, and the ideal scenario is that a woman approaches me and tells me she wants to be with me, but the voices foreshadow that at some point, further in the relationship, past the honeymoon phase you’d reemerge like some leviathan from the deep, and I’d have to explain myself.

Maybe I’d try to make that honeymoon phase last as long as possible, I don’t know but today a new relationship, at least for the last half hour, felt doable.

Oh and also voices say your “father” told you you were adopted in Argentina and then proceeded to kiss you. Fucking gross.

Edit: Voices in my head keep making me feel like I should have kissed that girl, that I just met, who I let borrow my phone so she could call her boyfriend…

like I have all the context to know that that would be the absolute wrong thing to do but for some odd reason I feel like if I did it I’d have a chance of being in a relationship with her or at least sex??? It’s a fucking backwards feeling, like the world doesn’t work like porn, and I know that. What the fuck.

edit: “Don’t be (insert you name)‘s you seriously would’ve gotten a goddamn blowjob if you were turned all the way up.”

Edit: Voices say you weren’t wearing makeup cause you were thinking about someone else while you were with me in Boston… there are honestly more important things to care about…

Edit: Okay back to the girl I just met, apparently, Mike Fonseca would’ve asked “do you want to make out” and voices are telling me she would’ve said yes and then would have wanted to kill herself.

She seemed nice, and I’m sure her boyfriend would be upset if she just randomly died so I’m glad I didn’t do that. Lol.

Edit: Voices say you’re “someone who loves me” and that’s why you’re unfaithful because that’s what they all would be.

I assume that’s a reference to all the girls that confessed love for me “turned up” but this is absolutely not what I want, or expected.