So, I’m remembering my most recent episode of psychosis and can I at least talk about the soap opera that was you and Aaron Wall?
How for almost a month in my mind you were trying to convince him that he was “your favorite” and thats why you were still friends with him, still talking to him on social media?
I mean, even before my psychosis there was that one moment during sex where I choked you for a bit and what appeared in my mind, if not in my room was not only his father but him, having sex with his mother?
And then when we were in New York, he “turned up” and I felt the texture of the ducks penis on my tongue, and then when you motioned that you’d have hung yourself you were talking to his younger sister, Oare, because that night she was raped by him and his friends at the time…
Just a bunch of dark moments but somehow they concern him.
And he and I have never been good friends, I mean we’re aware of each other but I can’t recall ever having his number in my phone, and if I did, I never called or texted him…
It just, it closes the gap between how you may have found me on xanga. Somehow he’s the glue that got us together.
But man, why would I ever hear something like that?
You can see how this feels alien to me, right?
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