P*A*I*N

Trying not to update this blog as late as I did in August, but suffice to say I’m in a lot of ✨P A I N✨ right now.

Physically and emotionally, and the source of my pain might be the same.

Long story short I suffer from hallucinations every so often and my doctor once said they could be the cause of my headaches.

Emotionally: these hallucinations bring up a ex I was with once in my life, and they tell me how much she hates me and she’s suicidal etc etc.

I still have feelings for her, I know I do but I have to try to numb myself, given the circumstances.

It makes it hard to move on as well, try to find someone new, when it’s quite literally a 24/7 reminder.

I am taking medications, all is not lost, but I wish there was a cure.