Cleaning up an e-mail inbox is strangely addictive. I went from 20,000 unread e-mails to 388 in the span of 4 days, painstakingly deleting about 50 emails at a time.
Anyway what’s up party people in the place to be?! I got an A- in my summer course! I was sure I would get a B or have to be happy with a C but I put my best foot forward and it paid off! Now, after 9 FUCKING YEARS I’m finally eligible to graduate for my associates degree. I’m hoping my bachelors degree doesn’t take as long but I suppose this is the trade off when you work 40 hours a week and take 1 class per semester.
I remember this one girl told me “you were always slow” but there’s also a wealth of motivational posts that say you have to do things according to your own timeline, at your own pace.
I mean, she couldn’t even imagine what it was like sitting in a classroom trying to suppress voices in your head, things you were hearing that weren’t coming from other people in the room. She just kind of lashed out and tried to hurt me but I think about it now and go “no wonder she’s single, she’s a huge bitch!”
Speaking of being hurt, single, and bitches, I feel as if I finally got over my ex.
I mean, I shared this romanticized idea about our time together, how we met and etc. and we weren’t on the same page. What felt like magic to me was just another run of the mill experience for her, and I read some of the writing I sent, and some of the writing she sent to me. I’m not embarrassed to be the guy that bared his whole soul for someone, but I wonder why I wasn’t able to see the signs sooner. Yes Yes Yes, having voices in your whisper sweet nothings or screaming as if you were the hand that touched the beacon (lol) makes it hard as well but still.
I felt like I could’ve listened sooner.
Saw the signs.
Moved on.
Maybe even gotten my degree sooner.
But again, to each their own timeline!
And who knows, maybe in the multiverse there is a version of me that did all those things. I wonder how they’re doing..?
Anyway, now that I cleaned up my e-mails I guess I’ll start working on organizing the pictures for my next book. That’s coming too! Maybe by 2025, because I have a lot of work to do and still have one semester to get through before I graduate!
P.S.
I don’t plan on attending graduation for my associates degree, maybe I will for my bachelors, later!