Hi, my name is Daniel Fairclough and in the year 2011 I was diagnosed with schizo-affective disorder after smoking marijuana recreationally.
If there’s enough interest in that story, maybe I’ll go over it in another blog post but what you need to know right now is that sometimes I hear voices in my head.
And ONE of those things those voices say is “Does anyone else want to be inspirational?” As if my career will only amount to being an inspiration for others, but I want reach the Hall of Fame in any of my endeavors.
It’s annoying, and not for the fact that I want to be famous, but for the idea that they can’t chart and determine my life’s worth and my value at a glance.
And you may be saying:
“But Daniel, these are hallucinations with no basis in reality! The world’s your oyster! You can do whatever you put your mind to!”
Doesn’t make it less annoying.
And I never aimed to be an Earth Shattering success. I don’t plan to make millions of dollars on my art work, or to become a household name type of actor, but as I continue down this road I’m traveling, in terms of my career, I seem to be moving towards movie and television production. While that’s interesting, I’m not certain that it’s for me. All the same I feel, the more I hear this one-liner, that I almost have to prove it wrong.
From what I’ve seen, to be a successful artist, to be able to live off of the art you make, you need some sort of notoriety. People at least have to have heard about you, and I think right now my name echoes in the halls of none, but I can’t say with any certainty that I want it to be any different. I’m comfortable pursuing a nine to five and paying the bills on time.
I thought about it the other day as well. A friend I used to have, that seems to have disappeared from social media, is the one that put the idea of being a famous artist in my head. It’s his fault for planting this stupid fucking ear-worm but I’ve already taken it to the next level by publishing a book, I’ve taken my first step through the portal. How far I travel has yet to be determined…