No clue

If you were talking to me you’d have a better idea about the content of my character, you sound as if you went and assumed the worst of me and now you’re starting to pay for it, Steinar

Promiscuous

I’ve tried to make peace with the idea that you were promiscuous all through Latin America and beyond.

Voices say you did, then didn’t.

It was you, then it’s someone else.

I’m not going to bother making heads or tails of it, you’re not even talking to me.

I want the answers I’m looking for straight froM the horses mouth, not hallucinations, and if I can’t get that, I don’t want anything.

Edit: stop being a voice in my head and just show me the heroes, please

Sex with a cop

Everyday, turned all the way up.

You could just not? Right?

Edit: I get it, I’m only one man. I’m not going to “magically heal you” with Black Dick and good vibes.

Edit: Steinar would’ve raped our child

You’d never be back in Boston, you’d commit suicide

Something something dark side

Edit: Voices keep telling me that every night at the hostel in Boston you had sex with someone after I left. They said you “cheated on me” each night, but, we know the deal.

I’m also too emotionally exhausted to find anger or sadness to aim at these hallucinations.

At the last minute they say it was “someone else” right before I begin to type, but again, this is all the care I can seem to muster, a care great enough to want to get it out of my head, put it somewhere else, so I can go back to not thinking about anything at all.

Is this “Monsters Inc.” ?

He needs to get energy from tortured peoples/emotions for inspiration? Like the monsters needed “scares” and eventually “laughter” to power their society???

Why

Why is this so fucking weird…

Edit: If you didn’t want me to experiment with drugs you should’ve stayed.

Edit: Now the voices are saying if you had stayed you’d have had sex with a drug dealer to get us high on something anyway.

Edit: VOICES SAY YOU HAD SEX WITH 8 PEOPLE AT THE HOSTEL, VOICES ALSO SAY “THIS IS WHAT WE’RE TRYING TO SHOW YOU” MOTHER FUCKING HOW DO I GET THEM TO STOP SHOWING ME!?”

Exhibitionism

Voices say you could just do it on Instagram like this chick. Technically she’s not nude, but she is wearing a see-through top.

How do I make this stop

Without dying

?

Edit: …I’ve been giving out so many fucking hand jobs…

Edit: Voices are saying Oare Wall if we were dating would want to just hang out in bed and masturbate all day… Why they’re bringing her up I have no idea, but the consequence of this is that the vagina would be beat red, tighten, and what I like to call “closed for business” and upon arriving home, if I wanted penetrative sex, it would be extremely painful, for her.

Edit: So MY suicide hinges on the end of the “Black Metal” album? MY Death? Amazing. As long as I’m present in my own mind, it’s not going to happen.

Edit: Why are you telling me Howards phallus is covered in scabs and blisters? For Black Metal? That’s not information for me, why am I being told this?!

Edit: “THAT IS WHY YOU’RE INSPIRATIONAL!”

TO WHAT?!

FOR WHOM!?

FOR WHAT?!

Edit: The video where I put on an accent and say “I’m gay now” I was honestly just trying to fucking provoke you. Do not think too hard about it. That’s the truth.

Edit: Voices keep saying I lost $100k after admitting that I’m not a fucking flaming homosexual. I don’t give a fuck. That’s two years worth of work, a stable paycheck for two years, the money will always be there as long as I’m willing to work for it.

Not “Bust My Ass” meaning to give up my butt for gay sex.

Or “Give a Job/Get A Job” where I’m really prostituting myself and using those words as a euphemism.

I’ll just find new work, preferably, hiring paying work, like I always do.

You are this memes origin

Voices say:

Edit: This meme embodies being a Swedish Prostitute (will embed later)

The idea that keeps playing on repeat in my head is that while prostitution is illegal in Sweden you can still sell like, “the use of a body part” in a sense, but not sex itself, I.e. you could sell your spit to someone and they masturbate with it/you give them a handjob (thus the obsession with blowjobs right now) and it’s technically not “selling sex.”

In my fucked up imagination, do you remember that piece of your foot you peeled off when I ran to catch the bus? You’d sell something like that and make them jerk off with it.

Gross. 🤢

Brazil

Voices are now telling me about what you were like in Brazil, saying “you were turned all the way up and no one wanted to know what you were thinking about.”

They’re equating you to this influencer I follow on Snapchat, a goth girl boxer, Barbie Three Six. She’s in Brazil now so I screenshot some of her story to post here.

Of course, she looks and most likely acts nothing like you, but I’ve already fucking lost my mind. What can’t I say?

“Enlightenment”

For some reason the voices are saying I’m your “fathers” cock… what?

Edit: while the voices are telling me why your “father” went through with facial reconstruction surgery, they’re also saying you don’t want to get back together with me in Boston, but instead, California.

I have no plans to move to California anytime soon, at least not while I’m trying to finish my degree at UMass Boston, which will take at least another 2 years.

New York

Voices say you gave someone or multiple people a blowjob in New York and they think they’re in love with you…

Edit: Voices are telling me it was rape and that you’d never want me to know, but it would appear that they aren’t respecting your wishes, or mine.

Anyway, sorry that it happened to you.

Edit: Voices say Aaron Wall would say something like “I’d rather be gay than be with someone who was raped.”

No one is perfect. You could spend your whole life looking for a perfect person only to end up with someone lying to you.

I’m not perfect, I lost my goddamn mind on you trying to figure out what the fuck was and still is going on inside of my head.

Not to compare apples to oranges though but I think, personally, you choosing to be with me (if that’s even an option) is much crazier than me wanting or choosing to be with you.

Edit: Voices keep saying you’d never want to be an American, that was “someone else” and okay, if that’s the case why are they still mentioning you at all?

Went to be too early

Voices say you are feces out of tin foil on your wedding day.

That no one would want to hear your wedding vows because they’d make you sick.

That you’re a lesbian.

That this is somebody else.

edit: voices say you “had sex” on a table at the wedding reception and some feces was left over and you had a mental breakdown

Edit: voices say you have done your best to forget about this day, and if these events are true I don’t blame you

Sweden/Boston

Voices say you’d go and be a “whore” in Sweden before you’d come and see my in Boston. That some girl from Boston already went there and had sex with the guy you want over there.

edit:

Voices say you’d just buy the house from my mom and kick us out. Fucked up thing to do.